Ouch...paper cut. Now where did I put those gothic Hello Kitty Band-aids?
I was recently informed by a friend that someone who I was trying to get to know and be-friend thinks I am a crazy gothic chick.
??
Can someone explain this to me please?
This has been on my mind for a few weeks now and is starting to irritate me. So I'm writing this blog to set the record straight and to vent before I go crazy.
Ok...so I wear dark plum/purple nail polish all the time. That's like my signature. Everyone knows that I wear that color all the time. So to make it clear, the polish is purple; not black. (If you watched the Hills, Gossip Girl, or even What Not To Wear on TLC you would know that Lauren Conrad, Blair Waldorf, and Stacy London have all, at some point, worn this color nail polish.)
And yes, I wear a lot of black. I happen to feel it is the best color on me, and my Fashion Merchandising Advisor concurs. Notice that my black clothes do not have skulls, crossbones, spikes, chains, studds, NIN signs (Nine Inch Nails) or ICP (Insane Clown Posse) on it. And the only reason I know who these bands are is because I went to Saks High. Enough said. Please also include Marilyn Manson in that list as well. I do not listen to that type of music. Ok?
Next. Yes, I am pale. No, I do not like to tan. There are many reasons for this. 1) I do not want melanoma by the time I'm thirty so laying in a tanning bed everyday doesn't work for me. 2) I like the fact that I do not look like a leather couch. 3) I take acne medication that does not allow me to lay out. If you have a problem with this, please call Dr. Shelly Ray. 4) Nicole Kidman is a Blonde Austrailian who is one of the whitest people I've ever seen and no one calls her gothic. I happen to love Nicole Kidman. (She's also middle age; do you see any wrinkles and/or skin/age spots? No, you do not. This is due to the fact that she doesn't tan.) 5) I don't want to look like every other blue-eyed, blonde headed Barbie Doll: Tall, Blonde, and Tan. That's not me. I am tall, I am blonde, I am pale. My eyes are almost black (I do not wear contacts. If you have a problem with the color of my eyes then talk to God about that one.) I do not look like I am from California and don't plan on it. Do you need any more reasons?
I have black four-inch bondage heels. If you subscribed to Vogue or Harpers Bazaar or woke up in the 21st century you would know that that is not a sign of Gothicism (lol) it is called fashion. Please aquire some. (This last sentence does not pertain to everyone, just the person who thinks I'm gothic.)It's totally fine if you don't like Vogue or the 21st century. I don't make fun of your Laura Ingles Wilder clothes. So don't make fun of my 2010 clothes. We all can dress how we want. I choose to wear bondage shoes and there is nothing wrong with that.
I have also read the Twilight Saga Series twice. I am a big fan of Twilight; not vampires. If reading or watching Twilight makes me gothic then the entire world is, in fact, gothic right along with me.
So lets review.
Her family came over to have dinner with mine. They were being the nice family that I have always known and loved. I was not there. She saw my room. My room happens to be dark plum. So freaking what!? I like purple. Appariently I was the topic of conversation on the way home. "Kayla's a little too dark. Kayla's a freak. Did you see the color of her walls?" (Um, yeah...and last time I checked they were purple; not black. If I paint my walls black then you have my full permission to admit me into the Psyche Ward.) Did you not happen to notice that I have 1964 framed Vogue magazines on my walls? One cover girl is Twiggy, the other is Jean Shrimpton. My bright blue bible is laying on my night stand. I have Paris book-ends. I also have foriegn Elle magazines that I have collected from the countries I've been to framed on my wall. AUDREY HEPBURN is EVERYWHERE! My own personal paintings of FLOWERS are also displayed throughout my room along with colorful, artistic vases.
So, I'm just a little irritated. I have been nice to you for a while; have tried to be your friend; have tried to make you feel welcome. Well I'm done with that. You haven't tried to get to know me. You have just assumed. And when you assume you make an "ass" out of "u" and "me." But mainly just "u." I have tried so hard to become your friend. I honestly wanted to get to know you. What's even worse is that you are nice to my face and talk mean behind my back. We are not in second grade anymore. So don't be surprised when I don't talk to you like I have been. I don't put up with fake; I don't put up with foaney. My friends love me for who I am; even if I were gothic.
So, get out of your bubble. Not everyone's the same as you; if we were, we would all be pretty boring. I'm not usually a mean person but you've pushed my buttons. It's fine if you want to think I'm gothic. The problem I have is that you are telling other people that I am when I am clearly not. I am a fashion major. I don't look like I belong in Anniston and I don't want to. I don't like looking like everyone else. But there is also nothing wrong with looking like everyone else. I just choose not to do it.
So if you just have to talk about me then talk about this blog. It's out in the open for you to read and discuss and comment on. Feel free. All I ask, is that if this person happens to read my blog and wants to leave a dirty/ugly/hateful comment then please do not do it anonymously. If you aren't big enough to say it to my face (or at least let me know who you are) then don't say anything at all.
So if you happen to see me wearing a band-aid, please do not assume that I have cut myself on purpose. Also take notice that the band-aid is probably Hello Kitty.
Yep, I'm soooo gothic.
??
Can someone explain this to me please?
This has been on my mind for a few weeks now and is starting to irritate me. So I'm writing this blog to set the record straight and to vent before I go crazy.
Ok...so I wear dark plum/purple nail polish all the time. That's like my signature. Everyone knows that I wear that color all the time. So to make it clear, the polish is purple; not black. (If you watched the Hills, Gossip Girl, or even What Not To Wear on TLC you would know that Lauren Conrad, Blair Waldorf, and Stacy London have all, at some point, worn this color nail polish.)
And yes, I wear a lot of black. I happen to feel it is the best color on me, and my Fashion Merchandising Advisor concurs. Notice that my black clothes do not have skulls, crossbones, spikes, chains, studds, NIN signs (Nine Inch Nails) or ICP (Insane Clown Posse) on it. And the only reason I know who these bands are is because I went to Saks High. Enough said. Please also include Marilyn Manson in that list as well. I do not listen to that type of music. Ok?
Next. Yes, I am pale. No, I do not like to tan. There are many reasons for this. 1) I do not want melanoma by the time I'm thirty so laying in a tanning bed everyday doesn't work for me. 2) I like the fact that I do not look like a leather couch. 3) I take acne medication that does not allow me to lay out. If you have a problem with this, please call Dr. Shelly Ray. 4) Nicole Kidman is a Blonde Austrailian who is one of the whitest people I've ever seen and no one calls her gothic. I happen to love Nicole Kidman. (She's also middle age; do you see any wrinkles and/or skin/age spots? No, you do not. This is due to the fact that she doesn't tan.) 5) I don't want to look like every other blue-eyed, blonde headed Barbie Doll: Tall, Blonde, and Tan. That's not me. I am tall, I am blonde, I am pale. My eyes are almost black (I do not wear contacts. If you have a problem with the color of my eyes then talk to God about that one.) I do not look like I am from California and don't plan on it. Do you need any more reasons?
I have black four-inch bondage heels. If you subscribed to Vogue or Harpers Bazaar or woke up in the 21st century you would know that that is not a sign of Gothicism (lol) it is called fashion. Please aquire some. (This last sentence does not pertain to everyone, just the person who thinks I'm gothic.)It's totally fine if you don't like Vogue or the 21st century. I don't make fun of your Laura Ingles Wilder clothes. So don't make fun of my 2010 clothes. We all can dress how we want. I choose to wear bondage shoes and there is nothing wrong with that.
I have also read the Twilight Saga Series twice. I am a big fan of Twilight; not vampires. If reading or watching Twilight makes me gothic then the entire world is, in fact, gothic right along with me.
So lets review.
- I do not wear black lipstick or black nail polish.
- I do not cut myself on the wrists or anywhere else.
- I do not worship Satan.
- Graveyards creep me out.
- My hair is blonde. How much more un-gothic can I be?
- I am thin. I know this. This is not something new to me. This thinness is not due to the fact that I take meth or shoot up or do any other type of drug. I am not bulemic, but you may want to be careful what you say because I have struggled with that before and I have friends who also have or are currently struggling with it as well. So keep your mouth shut; you never know what a person is going through. Currently, I am not bulemic or anorexic; I run three miles a day. I eat like a horse most days. It's called metabolism. Everyones is different; I guess I have a lot of it.
- I was at one point a Zeta Tau Alpha. Not exactly a gothic sorority.
- I am not obsessed with vampires: just Twilight. There is a huge difference.
- My favorite musician is John Mayer. Please tell me you know who that is...
Her family came over to have dinner with mine. They were being the nice family that I have always known and loved. I was not there. She saw my room. My room happens to be dark plum. So freaking what!? I like purple. Appariently I was the topic of conversation on the way home. "Kayla's a little too dark. Kayla's a freak. Did you see the color of her walls?" (Um, yeah...and last time I checked they were purple; not black. If I paint my walls black then you have my full permission to admit me into the Psyche Ward.) Did you not happen to notice that I have 1964 framed Vogue magazines on my walls? One cover girl is Twiggy, the other is Jean Shrimpton. My bright blue bible is laying on my night stand. I have Paris book-ends. I also have foriegn Elle magazines that I have collected from the countries I've been to framed on my wall. AUDREY HEPBURN is EVERYWHERE! My own personal paintings of FLOWERS are also displayed throughout my room along with colorful, artistic vases.
So, I'm just a little irritated. I have been nice to you for a while; have tried to be your friend; have tried to make you feel welcome. Well I'm done with that. You haven't tried to get to know me. You have just assumed. And when you assume you make an "ass" out of "u" and "me." But mainly just "u." I have tried so hard to become your friend. I honestly wanted to get to know you. What's even worse is that you are nice to my face and talk mean behind my back. We are not in second grade anymore. So don't be surprised when I don't talk to you like I have been. I don't put up with fake; I don't put up with foaney. My friends love me for who I am; even if I were gothic.
So, get out of your bubble. Not everyone's the same as you; if we were, we would all be pretty boring. I'm not usually a mean person but you've pushed my buttons. It's fine if you want to think I'm gothic. The problem I have is that you are telling other people that I am when I am clearly not. I am a fashion major. I don't look like I belong in Anniston and I don't want to. I don't like looking like everyone else. But there is also nothing wrong with looking like everyone else. I just choose not to do it.
So if you just have to talk about me then talk about this blog. It's out in the open for you to read and discuss and comment on. Feel free. All I ask, is that if this person happens to read my blog and wants to leave a dirty/ugly/hateful comment then please do not do it anonymously. If you aren't big enough to say it to my face (or at least let me know who you are) then don't say anything at all.
So if you happen to see me wearing a band-aid, please do not assume that I have cut myself on purpose. Also take notice that the band-aid is probably Hello Kitty.
Yep, I'm soooo gothic.
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11:40 PM
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