Unapproachable

All my life I have been told that I am intimidating, which is something about myself that I am apparently unaware of.

Last night, I finally got somewhat of an answer.

He said something along the lines of how I was intimidating. And I asked why? Could you please give me answer because no one ever can.

He said "It's because you are beautiful and sarcastic at the same time."

Finally, somewhat of an answer.

First of all, I don't consider myself beautiful by any means. I see myself as average. Extremely different in a sense but average as far as looks are concerned. Confusing I know. But there is nothing exotic or striking about me. And that's what I consider beauty, not average. And second of all, I am sarcastic. Very. But not to the point that it's annoying or too much. I find my sarcasm quite humorous actually. Never once have I thought of it being intimidating. But I could see where it would come off that way...

But I understand what he meant by his answer. It means that people don't want to approach me because they don't know what I am going to say next. So I guess that makes me witty?? I would consider myself witty; I like witty. But this person is pretty witty himself. So what's the problem? Why am I so unapproachable.

Okay so I guess I am not like everyone else. Which is fine. I can and have been dealing with that my whole life. I have always considered myself weird or abnormal from the average person. So I guess that doesn't make me average then does it?

Ok, so we have now established the fact that I am different. And sarcastic/witty. So I can see how that would make me unapproachable now. But does that mean that I need to change? I can't change that about myself without being someone I don't want to be. So if someone can't "approach" me (i.e. guy-wise) then they aren't for me. I guess it's just as simple as that.

I don't really know why I am writing this; it's just sometimes I can't figure out things in my head so I have to write them out to better comprehend them. This is my word-vomit on paper, I guess.

If that's not abnormal, then I don't know what it.