Claustrophobia

Why do I feel like this town is getting smaller by the minute when it is actually growing in size and population? Is it because people are consistently obsessed with what people do? Is it because some people have no life and feel like they need to constantly track what others are doing? Or is it just human nature, something we have to overcome through maturity and age when we finally realize that we are wasting precious time facebook stalking and instead could be doing something prolific with time that we will never get back? Sadly, we choose to take part in the things that are counterproductive.

Wow, we really are living in sad times.

I have lived in this place my entire life and I know all the faces extremely well. Although each one is different in size, shape, color, and depth they will always stay the same. Stuck here in this place forever, never getting out of their comfort zone, never really leaving. Never experiencing life somewhere else. But this town is where they belong, and they feel no claustrophobia. They don't feel like their walls are caving in and they aren't gasping for air.

I've never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong. I need to go where no one knows who I am. Where I can meet people with out the worries of the town gossipers pouncing in on my every move like a cougar hiding in the midst until the opportune moment comes so they can sink their claws into something else that, you guessed it, is counterproductive. This is what they feed on. "Like a human living on tofu. It keep's you strong but never fully satisfies." Then, their fix wears off and they go hunting for someone else. Or they never move on, and just stay in the same hunting area. But the problem with that is eventually they will run out of suspects. Eventually people will find out their little game and they will become extinct.

You know who you are. And I'm sorry I don't update my facebook status every 2.5 seconds.

Do people not realize that instead of searching on facebook they could read a book, learn a language, paint, have an real life conversation with someone, work and make $$, sleep, work out, bake, take a walk outside, journal (or blog), or if you just need to be on the computer you could be researching things that you would like to learn about. Like another country, or how to make sushi or how to get a book published. We don't have forever to do the things we want to do.

But as for now I am stuck in this massive amount of quicksand...but I will be getting out of it soon.